the upcoming teacher, the writer on the go, the dancer in the making....
bienvenue sur mon blog~
So as the title said, I, the sort-of-certified-JE-fan-specialized-on-hey-say-jump-b.i-shadow-and-nyc-50%-fangirl and 50% soon-to-be teacher (with addition of 0.01% daughter and big sis) is welcoming u 2 read my rants on RL, on fangirling and random stuff.
Random question: ZRC-chan, how was it like, being 22?
ZRC: well....hmmm~ *thinking*
ZRC: I dun know how's the feeling, considering the fact that I'm getting old and slowly realize that so many things I'd missed throughout my 22 years of living.
ZRC: And trying to do that thing again at this age will be my personal awkward moment. Disadvantages of being a primary school teacher, I think?
ZRC: Being an adult may be easy by looks. You can have your own car, your own house, your own Galaxy Note, your own Lumia and your own Vaio. But as you grow old, you realize that the only way to get all that is using MONEY and as you grow older, you realized that the only way to get MONEY is by WORKING!
ZRC: Okay, that maybe sound so pointless...LOL
ZRC: I'm still on my practicum week. Getting busier day by day. The time for me to get online started to decrease by each seconds. There were days in a week, where I don't online at all! Not even checking on my Facebook page. See, how busy I am.
ZRC: That's right, REAL LIFE STARTING TO TAKE OVER ME!
ZRC: I don't know what will happen to my fangirl-self, now that I'm busy with my works everyday, and getting older but still young at heart *bricked*.
ZRC: But I still don't like new, obsessed, disrespect, arrogant and immature fans. *Malay, please use Google Translate for the next two sentences* BARU SETAHUN JAGUNG JADI PEMINAT DAH BERANGAN MACAM-MACAM! Nak jadi bini GDragon laa, nak kahwin ngan Yamada Ryosuke laa, nak pergi honeymoon ngan Tamamori Yuta lah. *switch back 2 English* JUST EWWW~~ DISGUSTING!
ZRC: So maybe, I'm going to stop being a fangirl? MAN, THIS IS ONE HELLA DIFFICULT CHOICE! I still want to enjoy my life but those responsibilities, they killing me like URGH!!!
ZRC: In conclusion, it's not fun being 22. Adding to the boredom is that when you are single and forever alone. *shrugs* wait! I'm dating Kanata Hongo, so, I'm not single, LOL~
ZRC: That's my answer for your question, Anon-san. Thank you. Any presents for me? No? Then, it's okay.
ZRC: Now all I want to do here, in my birthday post, is A SPAM OF 'SHAKE IT UP' PV GIFs! PAAAAARRRRTTTTTYYYYYY~~~~
ZRC: Adding the purpose of the party is the fact that THIS IS MY 100TH POST! YAY!!!!! PARTY HARD!!!!
Another year had passed by and this year I....managed to survive another year full with chaos, problems, troubles, happiness, sadness, loneliness...mix it up, that's MY LIFE!
Speaking about MY LIFE, let's startwith my RL throughout 2011
My RL is like usual. Nothing different in particular. And tbh, this year I CRY A LOT. I dun know why but...
(c) on the pic.
That's right! After years of 'I don't care's, I just felt that everyone should understand and know what's happening to me. Everyone should consider what's going on with me. I maybe sound selfish for asking that, but I..IDK who else I can turn on. When I'm upset, when I'm mad, when I'm frustated. I just..wanted to have that person who will listen to my ramblings without being bad mood. Because let's say if I'm angry over sth, I'm going 2 let it go to something or someone.
I dun like talking about my life in IPG cause it's boring, full with dramas and tbh, I hate dramas. I like reality TV shows. No, I'm serious. I dun care what's happening in the class anymore. When something's happen, I'm definitely going 2 let them solve the problem and I don't want to be involved. Not that I'm x so cooperative thinking but after years of blending life with them, rn I think I just let them 2 tc of themselves. Unless if it is sth that matters my life, I'll fight 4 it. The rest...I just don't f*cking care.
Anyhow, for 2012, with practicums and more challenges to come, I just wanna said that I want to be another good girl this year. I don't want 2 b associated with the class 'politics' anymore. I just want a calm STUDENT life. I am so damn bad (even worse and more miserable) when concerning about handling stress.
And for the assignments and courseworks....I am still lazy ass like before, but it's just because I hv no motivation to do work tbh. I try to find one but I always failed. Ok, can I say that next year, I'm going 2 get all my hard work paid equally according to the types of works I'd done? Can I?
I'm x going 2 strikethrough that 'I am still lazy ass' sentence, coz...I'm being honest with this post and if u dun like me being lazy ass, then u'll suffer more if I'm being hardworking like a robot, FOR REAL!
(c) 2 tumblr. I just saw this...XD
this song had nothing 2 do with my previous ramblings, it's juz my current song I wanna download this when I hv time.
I already download that song! Yippie! 'sumandak digoda..kasanova'..
*change mode 2 being a fangirl*
Yup, being just a NORMAL girl pisses me off. Dealing with RL DRAMAS can sent me 7 feet underground
So, this year I'm being a serious FANGIRL If this is a job that earns money, I'm sure being a bijillionaire..:P. Like I said, I am tired of RL already. So my life is only...
(c) 2 tumblr. (that's x my IPad k?)
Yup. TUMBLRing.
But, being a Tumblr user brings me 'life', coz at least I can run away from my RL and do sth that I like and wanted to do but never done.
Lots of ppl ask me what the heck Tumblr is. Tumblr is just another SNS, just that it requires reblogging (may damage ur mouse if u reblog too much cause of clicking). From Tumblr I found lots of quotes relating to not just my life but our life in reality. What our heart wants to said but we can't say. I found quotes posted in this site really amusing me and partly influence my thoughts about my life. I often took reference on those quotes to face my life with smiles. I too got myself the VERY latest news about JPop (HSJ n Kisumai 2 b spesific) via Tumblr. And tbh, I just jealous with some users that create awesome graphics (pics, GIFs) coz I can't do that. Which is why, most of the GIFs in this blog, I pick from Tumblr coz they're awesome.
KUDOS TO THE GRAPHIC MAKERS! I AM VERY THANKFUL TO YOU MAKERS WHO ARE ABLE TO MAKE PICTURES SPEAK MORE THAN WORDS!
(c) 2 tumblr
the song says it all
Back being a FANGIRL, I'm going 2 talk on HSJ..
HSJ got 2011 bittersweet this time. Ryutaro's suspension...nuff said. *sigh*
28 June 2011 is the date that EVERY JUMPers got speechless. Some of them go rage and being insecure. But despite of those news, they still make the old man richer. That period was the time their single OVER being another successful HSJ single.
Other news to look out in 2011 4 HSJ:
Hikaru's so ikemen in the Japanese 'You're Beautiful', 'Ikemen desu Ne'..
Hikaru: mou~~
Yamada and Chinen's 1st time voice dubbing 4 The Smurfs..
Ryosuke: My 1st time attending a cinema premiere. I feel like Katy Perry.
Yuri: Pfft!
Speaking of Ikemen desu Ne, thanks to that drama, I started to become a Kis-My-Ft2 fan.
Kisumai: welcome 2 our La La Land, ZRC-chan!!
Being a Kisumai fan makes me happy. They're random, funny and random. XD. Also, their songs instantly makes me happy and geared up to face the day. Some time ago it was their debuted single, 'Everybody Go!' (also the opening theme song for Ikemen, jsyk) and now their second single 'We Never Give Up'.
Anyway, 2011, thank you so much for another great year in my life. To my family, keep supporting each other together. To my friends, we're going 2 work hard together and make 2012 the best year in our life. To ppl, PEACE YO!
(c) to all pic owners! I own nothing but the post!
*you are coming 4 the class at 7.30 and u wait 4 the lecturers and friends 2 come but no 1 hv come even after half an hour waiting*
You: *texting* hey, where r u guys? Don't u come 2 the class?
Friend: Hey, we got x class today.
You: EH! Why I didn't know bout it?
Friend: EH! You don't know. I thought you know. The leader had told us. In Facebook.
You: ... *didn't reply the msg, coz u didn't open ur FB last nite*
Imagine if 'You' is you. And you are not the type of keeping ur Facebook page as ur main page everytime you open the web browser. And you're the one who r to busy to even open ur own FB page. If this happens 2 u, what will u feel? Frustated? Mad? Angry?
Let me make things clear. IKR u guys want to save ur budget on ur prepaids (as if when u talked with ur 'loved ones' that isn't ur relatives and parents u nvr consider bout losing a lot of prepaids) but THINGS THAT ARE VERY IMPORTANT LIKE THIS.....is not suitable to be posted on FB...simply because NOT EVERYONE HV EVEN A SECOND 2 OPEN THEIR FCKING OWN FB PAGE, GENIUS! (unless if u hv smartphone can access 2 FB in 1 nanosec)
Before I go rage, I want 2 say sth. If you are being MORE considerate, u should hv known by the fact that notebooks and laptops are not everyone's best friend. Not everyone got their time 2 access 2 that 'book' and not everyone are addict 2 it. Even not everyone can go and get access 2 it. Some early users (like me), found out that that 'book' is now too boring coz too much ppl using it now and it's less exciting x like bfre, so we seldom open our FB page.
Fellas, Facebook n Twitter MAYBE the LATEST way 2 spread the news but some still think SMS and calls are still relevant this days.So, even though u hv already stated the info in FB, u should spread it to via SMS too. We may hv the latest method, but the old method is still relevant.
I'm not mad. I just expressing my opinion.
And all I want 2 do rn is 2 sleep, blame my running nose!
Maybe I assume him as the best definition of perfection.
After all these years...I can only see him with other girl, being lovey dovey in front of me.
RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!
No need 2 check my heart, Yama-sensei. Mine's dead already
I waste (how many years? I forgot already.) 3 years, crushing on him. Only 2 find him is with someone else. Someone VERY close 2 me. And it hurts a lot. No, not a lot. Maybe. IDK.
Shu-san~~~
And when I see him with the girl, how he treats her and such. I wished I was that girl. He really defines 'perfection' to me. How he treat the girl nicely. How he cares for the girl. Even if it just for an hour, but it's enough for me 2 watch him being caring 2 the girl. How lucky U are. Really, I wished I am U,girl.
*sigh*
When I think about it, really, it hurts me a lot. Really, really hurts me. Nande? Did I fall in love already? Congratulations, ZRC, U hv just step into adultery. *sarcastic*
I'm being pathetic, didn't I?
SILENCE is a girl's loudest cry, you can tell she's really hurt when she starts ignoring you.
-credit 2 tumblr
P/S: I have no offence towards everyone who read this post. Really, no. Because I knew the risk of being hate by u (if u do) All I wanted 2 say, girl, please, tc of him VERY well. He's too good 4 u and really cares about u. I'd saw how he treated u. So please, PRETTY, PRETTY PLEASE, take VERY good care of him and not take him for granted. Hurting him, is the same thing as hurting me, ur own friend.
P/S: this post is 100% in Bahasa Melayu Sarawak. as always, u can have Google Translator to read this post in ur own language..pfft!
Assalamualaikum semuanya....
Jadi ari tk (ari saya taip post tk) udah 4 Syawal. Hari Raya ke-4. Gne raya takorg tek? Brapa ringgit duit raya takorg oleh takat tk? Brapa igek open house dh takorg agak? Mesti takorg raya sakan oo. Udah namanya raya. Hari kemenangan kita udah b'puasa sebulan. (wah mesti kecik2 pinggang takorg, kalah kerengga aie)
Kmk tk...besalah, org perantauan, pulang laa ke kpg. Pulang kpg kat Bandar Raya Minyak a.k.a Miri laa oo. (tp tym kmk taip post tk, kmk pun dh pulang ke Bandar Raya Pusak a.k.a Kuching sbb adik kmk dh mk pulang ke negeri anak mami ari tk na.)
Bfre cuti raya tk, me prg Bintulu plh PBS. PBS paling last, next year udah praktikum, uiii!! Ya yg turun Miri dolok bfre my family ya. Rasa mcm down memory lane alu bila prg 2 tpt ya. Maklum aja, Bintulu n Miri ya laa kira mcm 'my childhood life' na. Miri, well, ya nang tanah tumpah darah kmk, n Bintulu ya just 3 thn sia, kira grad dr skolah rendah dkt sia laa. Ya temu ngan cikgu2 sekolah rendah dolok. cuma adalaa dua org cikgu tk yg kmk x sempat temu. Couple laki bini dua org cikgu tk, gyk ngaja kat Jepak sia. Munlaa ktk 2 happen 2 read my post, kmk just mk mdh yg...kmk pun bkl jd mcm ktk wak cikgu. Ngaja biak buta jd celik. Huhuhuhu../engkah lagu Terima Kasih Cikgu ctok
Sambung cta trip ya tek, lps PBS ya, alu me ngekot my cousin plg ke kpg di Suai, Niah. Kerja kmk, jd babysitter sampey my family dtg ambik kmk. Yobih, anak buah sampey 6 org! Mostly umo bwh 5 thn. Bnyk babies la. So kmk laa yg kontrak jaga anak-anak buah kmk bila mak bapak cdaknya plh persiapan pakey raya. Mak aih, lelah x lelah. Tapi best, sbb bila jaga biak rasa mcm agik biak na. Tp x pass gyk pakaikan baju ngan pampers utk babies. FAIL JD NURSE, LOL. Laa...aku bkl cikgu..bkl mak? Aiseh~ *facepalmed*
Bila my family dtg, syukur gylak2 sbb thn tk family kmk lengkap. X ada yg x pat balit kpg beraya bersama-sama. Payah nar mun udah blaja jauh2, lain2 course, lain time table dr jadual cuti sekolah. Kdg2 x pat pulang raya ngan family. Ya pun my 2nd lil bro ya tgh dlm exam week tym ya. Pulang jaklaa dik, slagi ada chance. Exam ya, plh online jak, LOL!
Nang bila dh b'kumpul rami2 ya, adoyai. Nang meriahlaa. Jumpa relative belah mak, belah bapa. Setahun sekali na. Ambiklaa chance yg ada.
Then bila ke Miri City ya...ya ampun. Mcm2 p'ubahan na. Flyover sana sini. Shopping complex semakin banyak n besar. N Bandar Baru Permyjaya tpt kmk ngan family kmk bkl diam ujung thn tk dh mcm bandar bena dh na. Siap ada McD drive-thru gyk ya. Pasaraya Giant dh ada kat Tabuan Jaya, Kuching, bok bkk 25 Ogos ri ya. Next Giant outlet lak kat Permyjaya ya la. Alhamdulillah..
Bila m'ninggalkan Miri n Bintulu, t'detik di hati, bila lagi mk dtg sia gyk? /mode sedey
OFF TOPIC: Yamachii's like, everywhere rn, since 9th September's getting nearer. What I want is a Tumblr page by the name 'ask-yamachii'. Like, onega-ii~It's OK, I found it already~
Ok, to be truth that everytime I try to speak it out to my RL friends, they'll sort of saying that, 'like we dun hv lots of work' etc etc.
I'm a slow yet too hard to understand whatever any new info hit me up, but seems like they didnt care about it. And that make me depressed, since I hv 2 catch up with them with no recollection of anything that maybe r included in the exam.
The words that always comes out from them is,'oh, she didnt want to do that', 'yeah, she's a lazy b***h', 'why is that she dun want to that? wasnt that thing is easy 4 her?' n such, n such. Those who know how I do my work, they seldom say that. But those who dont, let me make it clear here.
I am the 1 who is the weakest in the grades n such, and I do deserve what u guys hv throughout the days you study here. Good grades, perfect courseworks, informative assignments, meaningful groupworks. Somehow I cant adapt myself to some of your style of working. I'm slow n still learning and I cant learn as fast as lightning like you guys. I maybe didnt talk much in class and you may assume that I understand EVERYTHING despite my oh-so-perfect-student-profile of me. But no, you are wrong. Sometime, I dun understand and IDK what am I going to ask if I dun understand. I dun want you guys 2 give me 2nd lecture of the same topic n such too coz I know how wasting time it is. And I cant adapt with you guys. At least for now.
All I need is time. I appreciate that if you give me more time 4 myself to adapt with everything happen in the class, in the hostel, in the campus n in everywhere else where I stand. And help, really IDK how to ask 4 sum1 else's help, coz all I got is rejection, time x matching, so on n so off. That's under my consideration every1 I ask 4 anything, jsyk. It's x nice 2 invade ppl's RL, srsly.
And I'm x hardworking like you guys. I cant compete. Get me ready and I'm going 2 compete with you guys. 2 yrs left, rite??
Sincerely, Me.
p/s: cant u guys believe that I myself actually crying when I post this? I do, and maybe that helps.
I think I may give u a hint about who he is. But before anything, I'd like to tell you that I seriously AWARE by the FACT that 5 of 10 members of Hey! Say! JUMP is younger than me....(Hey! Say 7 to be exact, check my pimp 'rojak' post about them here.) Seriously, I'm absolutely AWARE of that. So dun puke, when I said that my ichiban is younger then me. Besides, there's an advantage of marrying young men (I'm not saying this, I just quoted what my lecturer said, kthxbai)
Moving on, I promised that I will make a post last Saturday nite (but I didnt, coz I'm too worried about my assignment, fail!me!!) and so I make it today then. And please dun expect me to finish this in less than 2 hours coz it includes lots of spazzing around, dying n reviving that makes u beat the cat's lifespan, and blood loss coz too much nosebleeding...(he's younger than me, about 2 reach age this 9th May, so I seriously dun think bout that consequence after reading this).
Long story short, he's my ichiban...
(coz I use schoolnet and schoolnet blocks almost every website except FB at nite, I get this from wikipedia)
I wont tell you much about him, there's lots of website out there go spazzing over this chubby-turned-currently-losing-weight-president-of-strawberry-society-Johnny's-new-Golden-Boy Yamada Ryosuke (phew!). Go figure.
Otherwise, I'm going to rant over him. (I better do this on his bday then, but oh well, I'm early)
To be truth he caught my eyes when I still spazzing over Kanata Hongo in Tantei Gakuen Q. You know the oh-so-annoyed-bookworm-mysterious-but-smart Amakusa Ryuu.....
(but yeah, referring the fact that he's younger than me, so I choose to spazz over Kanata Hongo then)
And so I ignored him 4 oh-so-long until I found him again in NYC (together with Yuma n Chinen) and Hey! Say! JUMP (pic of JUMP, well, just freakin' looking at my BG)
(I dun bring my mouse, so I cant make the pics go next 2 each other)
When I start go bored with FB and go wandering around Tumblr for oh-so-long, there r lots of his pics being posted there, so yeah! That starts it all. See how easy I move on from Chinen 2 Yamada...(demo YamaChii still my ichiban OTP, that's x matter, kthxbai)
What I like about her/him is, though he appears as the starlet of JUMP, he is ordinary in RL. Yeah, just ordinary Horikoshi High School student who...yeah, ordinary. (And currently learns Korean, I can't help but put on that fact, LOLjk)
Yamada: I don't know any girl's (text) mail messages
Presenter: You won't listen to them, Yamada.
Yamada: No, I really don't know them.
Presenter: But girls must often ask you out right?
Yamada: No, I was asked out more before I joined the industry.
He's a megane, to be exact. Really, I no lie 2 u. Dun ask me why he didnt wear glasses in shows blablabla, and he claimed that he had a bad eyesight, coz my answer is only 1...that's the power of contact lenses..(maybe mine is worst than him, n I no wear contact lenses jsyk)
those are paparazzi pics, jsyk~
And what a rant if we dont hv a picspam...
/pukes my popia...
(Ok, I can't rant more, I'm having class rn jsyk. I'll going 2 edit this later if necessary)
oh ok that may sound lame, really you can ignore it if u want to!!! And yeah, I still can see my ichiban..ohaithar yamada-kun..:P
In other news, I really want to continue my 'Pendidikan Disleksia' assignment but my head can't get away from remembering Yan Yan JUMP. Yup, I'm talking about the new variety show with all JUMP members (as wished by Chinen *whacked*) in it. This show started last 16th April in TV Tokyo (if u hv keyhole tv, tune in every saturday kay....yeah at that time I guarantee that keyhole tv is in total massive jam, LOL)
I hv nothing much to rant about that show but 4 u guys readers, well, there's so much 2 rant about this new variety show. WARNING: BEWARE OF MASSIVE GIFS
Well, the show start up with a bit of old clips and yup!! HSJ's special medley (including NYC's 'Sky High vs Yuuki 100%'). I personally like the NYC versus songs (plus the fact that the YamaChii pair sang both songs, and Yama-chan's singing my fav song in NYC. LOL, irrelevant, gomen).
And Yama-chan broke his voice at the very first before start singing the medley. Owww~
Next part is Sports segment, I think. They're playing street handball!!! Oh, n did I tell you that Johnny's Jrs also join this show? No? So I tell u, they also featured in the show too, ehe..
Moving on, they are going to play 5 on 5 handball game. There are 4 teams, which means 2 games and the duration time in every game is 7 minutes. They're using half-field. Meaning 2 say, only 1 goal post. Each team take turns on who will defend and who will attack.
1st game, is between Team Red and Team Blue..
This are the fellas in Team Red...Yamada, Hikaru and 4 Jrs (I only spot Matsumura Hokuto of B.I Shadow)
and those are fellas in Team Blue...Chinen, Takaki and again 4 Jrs (I only spot Koichi Yuugo of B.I Shadow) and if you look closer there's a Westerner in their group. Could it be Casey Andreson??? (I'm talking about the boy who stands at the farthest left, blonde haired ones)
and then the game starts. It started with Chinen's ability 2 block the balls thrown by the Red team (sugoi na Chii) and Takaki's failed attempt 2 score..
His reaction, XD
And the Red team scores!!! Not long after that the Blue team scores. And the game goes on until Hikaru asked the referee 2 change players. That is when the Red team scores many points. And Casey make the epic fail too, accidently throwing the ball to the audience. LOLjk~
In the end (after end up with a tie and got extra time), Team Red wins with 6 - 5 against Team Blue. Let's just say it's Yamada who break the ties~
Out of 6 points, 3 points are from him
Next game is between Team Yellow and Team Green.
We have Daiki, Inoo and Keito in team Yellow and Yuto, Yabu and Ryutaro in team Green
The game starts fine, except for this one...
ouch!!! that must be hurt ne ryuu-tan??
And of course, Inoo got his very 1st yellow card and his reaction...
at least he's scored 1st!!! referee is so mean~
In the end, Team Yellow wins 8 points against team Green's 7 points. All Hail Penguin!! Team Red and Team Yellow will be meet in the final which happens...next week maybe?? (no offence, I watched RAW version ok)
Next part, I hv no idea of what is it..but yeah, JUMP wears costume like waiters...
omaigawdISAWYAMACHII
oops! spoiler
So their task in this segment is each n every member need to take out only one tablet from the tablet case. All of them will b punished if one of them took out more than 1 tablet. Moving on, all the members got them right in taking out the tablets. Every1......except Inoo~~~
the reason?? he took out 2 tablets
And alas, all the members got their punishments, they hv to drink senburi cha...
The moment I saw the senburi cha glasses being taken out....
I suddenly remembered ShowaXHeisei...
yeah who could 4get this...
THE END OF MY RANT...*wipes sweat*
Ok, assignment mode ON!
p/s: remind me to create 'yan yan JUMP' folder in my lappy, coz srsly this show is worth watching and very entertaining!!!!
